the start of a new year ...

So it was advised to me a couple of months ago, (as I began a new, unfamiliar chapter in my life) "... if you're up for it. Write. Writing is just about the most therapeutic thing you can do." (Thank you, Dan Pearce!) I have put this off for a while, out of some fearful sense of retribution, but today is different.
April 4 is my birthday, and I am willing to bet you can guess which year I am starting today. As I said, it is a time of change, of loss, of painful things ending, of (hopefully joyful) things beginning, and some good things continuing. This is the beginning of my year (who needs to follow some monks' calendar anyway?!), and it is the time to start some things anew.
A birthday is supposed to be a joyous time, right? Or at least a happy one? Not to say that this day has been bad, by any means, but this year is definitely tempered with some heavy weights, to say the least. If you know me, then you know I am going through a divorce ... one that hasn't always been painless (are they ever?) or direct. Or sometimes logic doesn't seem to exist. No indictments, no accusations (I will do my best to keep this a drama-free zone) but many statements and decisions that leave myself (and many close to me) wondering "what the F?".
As one relationship has run its course, another one has begun to grow (I would be remiss to say that it had already begun prior) and develop. However, due to my own past, that, too, has come under some scrutiny and difficulty. It wouldn't be a relationship without difficulty - no matter the level, type, or reason.

It will be an interesting journey, and this will definitely be something new to me - something productive to distract me from numbing my brain with video games. But also somewhere to share with you all ... whoever you are. At the moment, I speak to no one, save for myself ... however, some day (maybe soon) I will have readers. That will be a joyful day. And I will make a joyful noise.
Until then, I shall share the days of my 35th year with cyberspace, may I keep you enthralled for at least 5 minutes. After all, it won't mean a thing in 100 years ...